Twenty Questions with Hannah Crerar
Welcome to Twenty Questions!
Every week I invite a twenty-something onto the blog and share their responses to twenty quick-fire, intimate questions. No one featured on Twenty Questions is a public figure, and most of these people I don’t know very well, or at all. My hope is that by taking a peek into someone else’s soul you will realise that, despite our fundamental differences, we still have similar insecurities, make similar mistakes and have fought similar battles to become the people we are today.
What is your full name?
Hannah Kate Crerar.
How old are you?
How old do you feel?
I actually feel 27 – probably because it sounds equal parts young and old.
Where were you born, and where do you live now?
Born in Wellington (my heart’s home), now living in Auckland.
What do you do for work?
I teach yoga and study psychology.
What do you do for fun?
I enjoy nature walks, ocean swims, moon gazing, sunbathing, hanging with friends, deep conversations, silly conversations, laughing till it hurts, being alone, good music, good stories, writing, reading, analysing life, meditating, resting, dancing, yoga, running and wandering places barefoot.
Did you go to university? If so, what did you study? If not, why?
I graduated from Victoria University a few years ago with a conjoint degree in Law and Commerce (Accounting major). For a few years I worked in a corporate environment. I worked alongside lawyers, social workers and administrators and really loved my team. However, I quit that job to pursue yoga teaching and psychology study as these aligned more with my passions and interests.
People often ask if I regret my past studies and work but I don’t at all. In my old job, my eyes were opened up to a very tragic and very real part of society in which people suffer abuse of all kinds – physical, sexual and psychological. I observed the clear cyclical nature of abuse – children imitating parents, peers and so forth. It illustrated that as humans, we all tend to operate according to beliefs picked up in childhood. Overtime as I learnt more about the human condition, I realised that we all hold negative beliefs that we can work through. While some situations are more explicitly traumatic, I believe we consciously and unconsciously inflict abuse upon ourselves as a result of belief systems we house deep inside. That is why I’ve set off on this mission to learn more about the body and mind and how we can all get to know ourselves at a deeper level and ultimately feel whole and happy.
What is your favourite movie of all time?
Matilda and Madeline taught me that young girls have super powers and can do anything. Grease also had a great imprint on me as a kid, and for better or worse it has made me lust after finding the softer side of “bad boys.”
What is the biggest risk you have ever taken that has paid off?
Acting on intuition – often in the face of logic – has felt risky but right. Starting a blog was really scary but it’s now one of my favourite outlets. Being the first to say “I love you”. Quitting my job. Doing yoga teacher training. All of these decisions made me the most nervous but also the most excited.
Hardest moment of your twenties so far?
There have been many times where I’ve begged the universe for help. Health scares, break ups, deaths, goodbyes – all of those have been hard. I’m grateful for the tools I have to support myself (yoga being one of those).
Best moment of your twenties so far?
It’s all the little moments; the first ever yoga class I taught is a buzz I’ll never forget, but often it’s the simple joy experienced from connecting with others, so many hilarious moments with friends, laughing to the point of crying and dancing to the point of getting dizzy. Another huge thing was healing the relationship I have with my sister. We went through a rough patch but something shifted and these days I couldn’t ask for a better teacher and friend.
Who do you miss?
I miss friends on the other side of the world and people and pets who have passed away. I lost my Nana when I was 10 and I still I feel an ache in my body when I think about her. We hold a lot of similarities and connected on a soul level.
What do you like the most about yourself?
I feel I have an ability to understand situations and people on an energetic and emotional level – being super sensitive can be both a blessing and a curse.
What do you like the least about yourself?
Procrastination, feeling overwhelmed and perfectionism can get the better of me.
If you had to get a tattoo, what would you get? If you already have tattoos, which is your favourite and why?
No tattoos. Plenty of scars, freckles and laughing lines that come with their own stories. I am obsessed with symbols so if I got a tattoo it would probably be a symbol of duality or cycles.
How would your friends describe you?
I asked a few and they said “kind-hearted, wise, cheeky, soulful, graceful, clever, calm, floaty, weird, fun and connects easily with others”.
How would your parents describe you?
They said “warm, caring, calm, soulful and dreamy.” I don’t know how to interpret “dreamy” but thanks Mom!
When was the last time you cried?
A few days ago on a flight. It was a combination of saying goodbye to someone and to a chapter of my life. I was also listening to a very melancholic soundtrack. Music has a way of connecting me to my emotions.
What are you afraid of?
Probably other peoples’ judgement. I’m learning to care less about what other people think and just be myself. JP Sears put it well when he said “As long as I am worshipping others’ approval or disapproval, I can never accept myself.”
If you could start your twenties again, what would you do differently?
I think every experience has led me to the place I am today so I wouldn’t change a thing – but perhaps just trust that I can be myself and know that it’s all going to be okay. Perfect doesn’t exist. Even the masters are imperfect.